I’m Sorry

I tend to say those words a lot, like seriously all the time. My counselor says I’m apologizing for my existence but I don’t think I am. I just think I’m generally a caring person and feel sorry if someone is struggling. Now, you are probably thinking: well how in the world is this gonna relate to your blog Liz? Be patient my friends. Today I went to Hobby Lobby, and let me say it’s a nice store(they have some really cool batman stuff, just saying). I got a birthday present for my friend Elizabeth and a really cool drawing pen. Afterwards I thought that we were going to go back to my gram’s house to hang out for about a hour or so. Turns out that we were going straight to my cousins house, 45 minutes away from my gram’s house. I flipped out. To be completely honest I totally lost it. My mind went crazy and started saying stuff like: WHAT, I THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO GRAM’S HOUSE? WHAT ON EARTH ARE THEY THINKING, I NEED MY REST PEOPLE. I CANT GO THERE LOOKING LIKE THIS, I LOOK LIKE AN EXHAUSTED ZOMBIE… HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE????So yeah basically I had a mini melt down. And you know my mom felt bad because I’m here crying my eyes out, so I’m saying sorry like my life depends on it. Sorry for feeling this way, sorry for not being able to do things that you can do, sorry for disappointing you. Which I guess none of that was true(my mother told me this, my brain just doesn’t want to believe it for some reason…). I told you the I’m sorry had to come in somewhere right? Ha, and you thought I was lying. This resulted in us( my mom and I) staying home. I’m gonna miss my cousin though. She gives great hugs, which are a lot like my friend Aaliyah’s and it made me sad but other than that she gives great hugs. We haven’t talked in so long so reconnecting was great for me, I hope she feels the same way. Also to all my friends who read this blog, thank you for all the AMAZING texts saying how much you love it. If I had my way I would already have written a book and published it but unfortunately that’s not how the world works. Thank you guys, You are all amazing(every single one of you, don’t you forget it).