Panic attacks

Recently I had a sleepover with one of my best friends Olivia(this is what I’m going to call her because I don’t want to put her real name on here). Now this went really well for the first couple hours. We got ice cream, I did her makeup, we even started watching a movie. About half way through the movie I started getting really warm and feeling like I was about to throw up. So I got up and went to the bathroom just in case I needed to actually throw up. Next thing I knew I was on the bathroom floor with a huge head ache, sweating, and a heavy Feeling all over.  This was all because I was having a panic attack. These are very scary things, and at that moment there is nothing you or anyone else can do for you. You have a really hard time breathing and its a struggle to think or move. One of my little coping things to help with my panic disorder is makeup. Whenever I feel nervous at home I go upstairs to my room and I put on makeup. Its one of the few things I can do when I feel overwhelmed. I Would encourage everyone who gets overly stressed to find something that calms them down and does not pressure them at all. I think my friend Olivia was a little shaken up by it, I mean I would be too if she came in crying and not breathing well. The wonderful thing about Olivia is that she is very understanding, and had no problem sleeping all the way across the room. Even when we woke up the next morning she didn’t even mention it, and for that I am very grateful.  I tend to isolate myself from my friends, thinking Oh, they will think i’m so strange and that I am crazy.  People like Olivia make me feel otherwise and help me realize that people care and love me a lot. Thank you so much Olivia, I don’t know what I would do without you. Also, thank YOU for reading this, it means a lot to me. Oh, I almost forgot, I found this amazing song this week that really describes some of the stuff I’m going through, I hope it helps you guys as much as it did me. Go check it out; its called I’ll find you by Lecrae and Tori Kelly. Thanks Again!